Mother Teresa’s “interior darkness” – Part 2: Wanting to shut Christ out of this world

TOPICS: Desire to serve God, but colored by duality – can only serve God within our belief system – setting higher direction above human institutions – we are co-creators – adapting your direction to your preconceived beliefs creates interior struggle – when we are no longer open, we might feel as if God has left us, yet it is a conditions created in our minds – seeking to help people live with poverty instead of removing it – saying God in us should adapt to current conditions rather than changing them – thinking poverty is inevitable – focusing on the suffering of Jesus – glorifying suffering – this world is not important, only salvation after we exit this world – this maintains status quo and does not challenge the power elite – the consciousness of wanting to keep Christ out of this world – knowing better than God – wanting mental images rather than reality of Christ – thinking you can be saved without changing yourself – a religion of hypocrites – all seekers will face these challenges – resisting growth causes suffering – surrender takes you beyond suffering – thinking suffering is put on you by God – God and Jesus do not want people to suffer –

Question from Kim: Jesus, I would like to continue our discussion of Mother Teresa and especially her state of consciousness?

Answer from ascended master Jesus through Kim Michaels:

I want you to describe what you see as the consciousness Mother Teresa had taken on. [See Part 1]

Kim: Well, it seems like a very complex state of consciousness with many subtle undertones, so I will begin with the one thing that stood out as I read the book. I am actually happy to know Mother Teresa is a mature being and that she had only taken on this consciousness, since it makes it much easier to understand some of the inconsistencies I saw as I was reading the book. So in the following, I am not talking about Mother Teresa personally but about the state of consciousness.

To me, the first issue I noticed was the fact that Mother Teresa obviously has a very strong and genuine desire to serve God and she is willing to make great personal sacrifices to do so. This is something I see in many religious and spiritual people, so I think it applies to a large part of humanity. Yet I also see that in our desire to serve God, we are easily deceived by our imperfect desires. With imperfect desires I mean desires that we think are genuine but which are truly based on a dualistic belief about God, ourselves and the world.

For example, when I first discovered the spiritual path, I desired to serve God and the ascended masters, but there was a good deal of a self-serving need for recognition mixed in. Something it took me many years to fully surrender.

So I see in Mother Teresa’s approach the genuine desire but a strong mixture of a particular view of how her service should be carried out. In her case – as with many other religious people – it is clear that Mother Teresa simply cannot conceive of serving God outside her church. In my view this is inconsistent, especially when you consider that she receives her call in a very non-standard way for a Catholic. In other words, the call to start her mission is very much a mystical experience in which she feels God and you, Jesus, are calling her to a new type of mission for “the poorest of the poor.”

Her call is clearly to go beyond what the Church is doing, yet she cannot look at how to carry out the call in a universal way and has to look at it through the filter of her Catholic beliefs. She is, in essence, called to “boldly go where no nun has gone before,” and when I read her own description of the actual call, I sense that her call was to serve the poor in a truly universal way. She is called to leave her convent and go live among the poor in India, living as one of them. Well, to my knowledge most of the poor in India are not Catholics but Hindus. So could one not have interpreted her call to mean that she was to serve them as neither a Catholic nun nor as a Hindu but as a person who had truly understood and embodied the universality of Christ and your mission?

This thought doesn’t seem to have occurred to Mother Teresa, since from the very beginning, she sees her call as being very much within the framework of the Catholic church, although she does leave her old order and starts a new one.

Jesus, is it correct that she could have been more universal in carrying out her mission?

Jesus: It is correct that her call was to be truly universal in serving the poor, thus setting an example of how to serve people in the Spirit of Christ and NOT the outer religion that claims to represent me on earth.

She was not actually meant to completely disassociate herself from the Catholic Church, but it was the highest potential that she would have become even more universal in carrying out her call, thus having an effect of making the Church rediscover its roots in my universal call to preach my – non-sectarian – gospel to all people. As I explain throughout this website, it was NOT my intention to create a dogmatic church, such as the Jewish religion of that time, but a truly universal, non-exclusive spiritual movement.

Now, go on.

Kim: There are actually several passages in her letters where she is trying to convince her superiors – in order to get the Church’s approval of her mission – that her calling is from God, but she still says essentially that she will respect the decision of her superiors as the will of God. For example, at one point she says: “Before I begin I want to tell you that at one word that Your Grace would say I am ready to never consider again any of those strange thoughts which have been coming continually.” To me this indicates that she is willing to put the outer church before her inner, mystical experiences—something a true mystic would not do.

Now, she is also very clear in stating that she is convinced her superiors will eventually agree that her calling is the will of God – although she can’t understand what is taking them so long – yet she does actually say that if her superiors had refused to give her permission, she would not have started her mission. It even sounds like there is a part of her that would have been relieved to remain a typical nun. I obviously don’t know what she would have done had they refused her pleas, but according to her own statements, she seems to be saying that she will accept the Church and her superiors as the final authority in the matter.

This, of course, is where I fundamentally disagree with her approach. If I had not disagreed, I would never have started this website—which obviously does not have the approval of any Christian church and probably never will. My point being that I believe that while we should not disregard those who have experience and insight in spiritual matters, we must be first and foremost true to who we are and what we get from within—being very careful to discern that we are not being deceived by our egos. This is what I saw in your life, Jesus, and obviously all who walk the path of Christhood need to follow your example.

You obviously put your calling from God before any earthly authority, or the scribes and the Pharisees would have caused you to abort your mission. So what I am seeing here is that there is a very old consciousness on this planet of thinking that in serving God, we must adhere to certain standards or a certain authority in this world. People honestly believe they are following the will of God, but they don’t realize that they have – subconsciously – superimposed a man-made mental image upon what they see as the will of God. Thus, God cannot actually communicate his will to them without violating their free will.

I very vividly remember going through a period in which I was seriously contemplating what the will of God was for my life and actually saying to God, “I am willing to do whatever you want, just tell me what your will is.” After several months, I got a very clear message from my higher self, stating, “What if the will of God is for you to make your own decisions?” That was a complete paradigm shift for me, and it took me years to get my mind around what that actually meant and what you meant when you said, “My father worketh hitherto and I work.”

In other words, we are created to be co-creators with God, so following God’s will is NOT a matter of turning ourselves into robots who follow some exterior voice in the sky that tells us how to do everything. It is a matter of realigning our outer minds with the overall framework of our Divine plan and then making our own decisions within that framework, thus expressing our God-given (as opposed to the ego-based) individuality in our decisions. It is a matter of bringing our lower being and conscious will into perfect harmony with our higher being and greater will, so we can say as you did, “I and my father – meaning our higher selves – are one!”

It is very significant to me that when Mother Teresa received her call, she felt a spiritual Presence with her constantly for six months, but when she actually started her mission, she began to experience the interior darkness that followed her for 50 years. To me this signifies that her call was a genuine call, but that she superimposed her Catholic mindset upon it and thus did not actually implement it the way it was meant to be implemented.

Since she was not open to seeing this with her outer mind, how could her higher self, God or you communicate that to her? To me the only way was to leave her alone, thus signaling to her that she was going in the wrong direction and that she needed to get back to the open and listening state of mind that she had when she received her call. In other words, when she received her call, she was willing to listen for something that went beyond Catholic doctrine, but in carrying out her call, she seems to have closed her mind to going too far beyond the outer church.

I have seen in numerous people that they have a spiritual awakening because they are genuinely seeking answers. Yet then they find a religion, guru or spiritual teaching, and now they think this will give them all the answers they will ever need. In other words, they took a step forward on the path because they were seeking, but now they think they have found everything they need, so now they are not seeking anymore. To me this stops your growth and I think we always need to be seeking for a higher understanding.

So to me what happens is that people are genuinely seeking, but then they are deceived by their egos into thinking they no longer need to seek beyond their present framework – or mental box – and this stops their growth. I have seen people stay at a certain level for decades, so based on that it doesn’t surprise me that Mother Teresa could experience her interior darkness for 50 years. It wasn’t actually that God had left her, but that she had left the consciousness of being open, of seeking with the open heart and the childlike mind. So she could no longer experience God’s Presence.

Basically, what I see is the tendency to superimpose a human construct – a mental image – upon God and our genuine desire to come closer to God. By doing so – and by sticking with this image without questioning it – we make it impossible for us to move closer to God and thus often feel abandoned or unwanted. We put ourselves in a catch-22 and there is no escape until we fundamentally change our approach to God.

Mother Teresa actually says: “I have no faith. I dare not utter the words and thoughts that crowd my heart and make me suffer untold agony. So many untold questions live within me. I am afraid to uncover them because of the blasphemy. She has clearly adopted an image of God that cannot answer all of her questions, but because she refuses to question the image itself, she cannot resolve her questions and move forward. Thus, she remains stuck in this catch-22.

The real question is whether we will obey the first two commandments. Will we reach for the real God or will we settle for a man-made God? Will we reach beyond all graven images, or will we turn one such image into a substitute for the real God, thus worshipping the dead image instead of always reaching beyond all images for the Living God? Will we allow Christ to take us beyond our mental images or will we demand that Christ should conform to our images in this world?

Am I making any sense, Jesus?

Jesus: You have described the Alpha aspect of the equation, now describe the Omega aspect.

Kim: You are making me work for this, aren’t you?

Jesus: No, I am simply testing whether the disciple has multiplied his talents and has thus made worthy use of what he has received from the teacher. Anyone who sincerely studies this website and applies its teachings should eventually be able to find answers from within—and obviously that must apply to you as well.

Kim: I appreciate that. Well, what I see as the Omega side of the equation is the entire issue of poverty and how Christ would want to approach this. To me it is obvious that you want to remove poverty from this planet. You even said that you have come that all might have life and that more abundantly. So it is obvious to me that in the end, poverty has to go. And it is also obvious to me that Mother Teresa’s mission was not aimed at achieving that.

She makes a very telling statement in one of her letters: “The poor are bitter and suffering because they have not got the happiness that poverty should bring if borne for Christ.” In other words, she does not see it as her mission to remove poverty but to enable people to bear it as a sacrifice in this world with the promise of a better hereafter.

To me this links to what I talked about above, but it is a bit subtle. To me the essence is that we are designed to be co-creators with God, which has the ultimate goal of bringing God’s kingdom to earth—the abundant life you spoke about, which I see as both spiritual and material abundance, a Golden Age. Yet if we superimpose a dualistic mental image on our service to God, we abort that goal.

We do this because in order for God’s kingdom to be manifest on earth, most current conditions will have to change and some of them will have to change drastically. Yet a dualistic image comes from the consciousness that does not want change, but wants to maintain status quo. The ego wants to stay where it is comfortable because it feels it has things under control.

So in order to bring God’s kingdom, we have to be wiling to go beyond ALL of our mental images. And when we set limits for our willingness to question our images, we are indirectly serving to maintain a status quo that is less than God’s kingdom on this planet. We are, so to speak, letting current conditions become the authority that blocks God’s desire to give us the kingdom and we block that kingdom. We are letting the Mother, Omega, aspect take authority over the Father, Alpha, aspect.

I remember Thomas More saying, “I am the king’s good servant—but God’s first.” Yet we often do the opposite, thinking we can serve some earthly image before God and still do God’s work.

I am not actually saying Mother Teresa’s mission was wrong in the sense that I do believe Christ wants to alleviate the suffering of the poor in the short run. This is the principle of giving people a cup of cold water in Christ’s name, and of God not giving you a stone when you need bread. So I think that aspect of her mission was okay, but as she gained more publicity, she had the opportunity to go further and bring attention to the need to remove poverty.

Yet because of her image of Christ, she could not make that leap and instead she almost became a tool for maintaining status quo, in which a few nations are very rich while the population in many countries live in a state of poverty that I think God finds absolutely unacceptable.

Why do we have such an unequal distribution of wealth? Why does our western civilization – with all of its advanced technology and riches – tolerate that so many people live in poverty? It is partly because there is a power elite who actually want the majority of the world’s population to be poor so they can seem richer and more powerful in comparison. But it is also because we, the ordinary citizens in the western world, have been seduced by our comfortable lifestyles into accepting poverty in other parts of the world.

We have allowed ourselves to be seduced by the power elite that poverty is necessary or inevitable, while in reality it is an artificially created state that allows some very large multinational corporations to exploit the resources in some countries in order to make an insane profit for their shareholders. We, the people in the West, have been bought off and lulled asleep by having a comfortable lifestyle that we are reluctant to give up.

Yet I don’t think we have to give it up, we simply need to decide that we will not accept this inequality, and change society so a small elite can no longer exploit the general population. When that is overcome, there will be plenty of resources to give every human being a reasonable lifestyle.

So I think organizations like Mother Teresa’s are doing a valid work, yet if they do not seek to raise awareness of the need to remove poverty and its causes, they are actually helping to maintain it. Which almost becomes a codependent relationship, because if there were no poor that needed assistance, why would people in the West feel impelled to donate to these organizations and thus how could they survive?

Which is part of the whole consciousness we are discussing of raising an institution on earth as being an end in itself rather than a means to an end. A typical example is the Catholic church. You, Jesus, gave your life to show us that we don’t need an outer church in order to be saved, because the kingdom of God is within us. The Catholic church took away that purpose by inserting itself between people and salvation. Your goal was to make people spiritually self-sufficient so they don’t need anything outside themselves. Yet the church is aimed at sustaining itself and thus does not want people to become self-sufficient.

Again, I am not speaking against charitable organizations, but I think we need to recognize that such organizations do allow many people in the West to “buy” peace of mind by feeling they are doing something for the poor by simply writing a check. Many people in the West have made money by playing the game set up by the power elite and the big corporations, for example in the stock market. Yet this system is precisely what keeps a majority of the world’s population in poverty. So by donating a part of their money to a charitable organization, people can feel they are doing something for the poor, and thus they don’t have to start a revolution that can change the status quo.

Any comments, Jesus?

Jesus: That will do for now. As Mother Mary explains, everything in the world of form is created from the interplay of the Divine Father – Alpha – and the Divine Mother – Omega – as the expanding and contracting forces. Yet for a sustainable creation to occur, the two must be balanced by the Divine Son, namely the universal Christ mind expressed through God’s co-creators.

It is indeed the goal of Christ to eliminate all poverty on earth and to give all people a spiritually and materially abundant life. So the highest potential for Mother Teresa’ mission was that she would both alleviate the immediate suffering of the poor while contributing to an awareness that the elimination of poverty needs to become a declared goal of the world-wide community.

Why do you think she could not fulfill that potential?

Kim: Well, I would have to say that it was because she did not see that it is your goal to eliminate poverty on earth.

She didn’t see this because she had an image of you and your mission that is fundamentally different from your teachings on this website. From an early point in the book, I was struck by how much Mother Teresa focused on your suffering on the cross. It seems that whenever she thought of you, she saw you hanging on the cross and suffering for the sins of humanity—doing this because you had an insatiable thirst for saving lifestreams. She was so focused on that one remark, “I thirst,” almost to the point of ignoring everything else you said. She even says, “The general end of the Missionaries of Charity is to satiate the thirst of Jesus Christ on the cross for Love and souls.”

In many of her letters, she seems to glorify suffering and she literally makes it sound like her basic belief is that your suffering on the cross is what “bought” people’s salvation. It seems to be a belief rooted in the concept of sacrifice, such as the animal sacrifices practiced by the Jews at your time. The idea seems to be that because people have sinned – causing suffering on earth – someone has to suffer even more to make up for it. Previous suffering can only be erased by more suffering. So by her own suffering and by the suffering of the members of her order, they are buying souls for you. The more they suffer, the more souls will be saved.

I have always found this idea very strange—that God wants you and us to suffer and that suffering can lead to salvation, as if two wrongs can make a right. I think suffering is caused by separation from God (which is the essence of all sin), so how can more suffering overcome that separation? Yet the real point here is that I think her basic approach to life was that you, Jesus, are primarily concerned about saving souls, which is something that happens after we die. So it isn’t really important what happens in this world, it only matters that people can enter heaven after they die.

She says, “The joy of loving Jesus comes from sharing in his sufferings. So do not allow yourself to be troubled or distressed, but believe in the joy of the Resurrection. In all of our lives, as in the life of Jesus, the Resurrection has to come, the joy of Easter has to dawn.” In other words, don’t worry about your suffering, for by your suffering you earn the resurrection, as if the resurrection is guaranteed. I think that is a very subtle mentality that very much contributes to maintaining the status quo, where so much of life on earth is dominated by the consciousness of duality and thus we cannot remove suffering.

I can’t quite understand how she can actually believe this and then still dedicate her life to alleviating the suffering of the poor. It almost seems that if she really believes what she says about suffering and the resurrection, she should let them suffer, for the more they suffer, the more they share in your passion and the more they are guaranteed the resurrection. Yet my point is that she is focused on alleviating the suffering of the poor without removing the cause of poverty by changing status quo.

To my knowledge this is part of the Catholic mindset, and I think it played a big part in the Church’s history and actually helped keep Europe in the Dark Ages for a thousand years. I think this consciousness very much serves to maintain the status quo that gives the power elite so much influence in this world. Because the spiritual people are fooled into looking to the next world and thus not exercising their authority in this world—the authority to challenge the power elite and say that enough is enough. We do not do what you did and challenge the powers that be, thinking it is enough to be “good Christians” and focus on a world to come.

Am I on the right track?

Jesus: You are correct that my suffering on the cross was just a temporary phenomenon that should have no significance for modern Christians.

However, I do feel the suffering of the poor, and that was what Mother Teresa tuned in to in order to get the motivation for starting her mission. Nevertheless, you are correct in that her focus on my suffering was disproportionate and that she was incorrect in thinking two wrongs can make a right and that her own suffering could somehow save lifestreams.

What she could do – and what was the real cause of her personal suffering – was to take on the consciousness that keeps people separated from God—that keeps them spiritually poor. Yet she would obviously have done more if she had worked through that consciousness and thus been able to inspire others to overcome it as well.

So the question is why she was not able to do this, and that is why I want you to go a bit further. What is the image of Christ that you are talking about?

Kim: Oh, I see it! It is exactly the consciousness that wants to keep you out of this world, so you cannot be the judgment and overthrow the forces of anti-christ. This is the consciousness that challenged you through the scribes, Pharisees and temple priests and accused you of blasphemy. They were essentially saying that the Christ is acceptable as a concept beyond this world, but that the Christ should stay out of this world and leave it to the forces of anti-christ. They were looking forward to the coming of the Messiah, but only in the sense that it was a future event. When you actually came in the flesh, they wanted you out of this world so you could not overthrow status quo in which they were in control.

That is why they have created the consciousness that claiming to be the Christ in embodiment is blasphemy—a viewpoint that most mainstream Christian churches would agree with even today. I mean, I regularly get e-mails from Christians who accuse me of blasphemy because I pretend to be you.

It is like when the devil tempted you by offering you all the kingdoms of this world if you would worship him—meaning that you would take upon you the consciousness of separation, which says that this world belongs to those who have separated themselves from God and that the Christ has no right to come here and overturn their tables in the temple.

This is a consciousness that superimposes a mental – man-made, dualistic – image upon the Living Christ, thus demanding that Christ conform to the image instead of challenging ALL graven images. It is failing the second challenge of Christ by seeking to force Christ into our mental box instead of allowing our human identity to die so we can truly follow Christ.

I can see why this is a very powerful collective consciousness on this planet, which makes it easy to see why Mother Teresa could not overcome it on her own. I assume it will take many people to challenge this consciousness, probably the ten thousand you are talking about.

Anything I have left out?

Jesus: What is the essence of this consciousness—what is it actually saying?

Kim: Are you referring to pride?

Jesus: Yes!

Kim: Well, the consciousness is essentially saying that “We know better than God how this world should be run, so we don’t want the Christ to come in and overturn our tables and expose our carefully crafted lies. We don’t want the reality of Christ, we want to keep our sophisticated mental images that justify us doing what we want to do in this world.” So it is a consciousness of spiritual pride, which I see as the ultimate perversion of the Christ mind, which is completely humble in its oneness with God’s reality.

The Christ mind is designed to keep us one with the reality of God, so the consciousness of anti-christ not only keeps us separate but makes us feel we are absolutely right in our separation. That is why so many religions have this consciousness that their image of God is the only true one, that their scriptures are infallible and that only members of their religion will be saved. This is obviously the mindset of the Catholic Church, and the book demonstrates how both Mother Teresa and her superiors are blinded by the belief in the superiority of the Catholic Church. I think this plays a major role in her inability to look beyond Catholic doctrine for a deeper understanding of her affliction.

To me this is incredibly dangerous, because once people are trapped in this mindset, it is extremely difficult for them to free themselves. I think Mother Teresa’s condition demonstrates this with incredible clarity—for anyone with an open mind.

I know many people will probably resist any talk of Mother Teresa and pride, and I would too before I read the book. However, I do see Mother Teresa’s higher being as being perfectly humble. I also see that the consciousness she took on is NOT humble and the book does expose certain elements of pride. For example, she says, “I have been burning with longing to love him as he has never been loved before.” She also says, “I want to become a saint, by satiating the thirst of Jesus for love and souls. And there is another big desire—to give the Mother Church many a saint from our society.” She further says, “As for myself, there is but one desire, to love God as he has never been loved.”

I know this might sound innocent, and the book portrays it as a sign of her sainthood. But I see it as the expression of a dualistic view, where one is comparing oneself to others, seeking to demonstrate that one loves Christ or God more than any other human being, thus oneself or one’s church is superior to all others. I think we need to overcome this mentality of judging and simply focus on being who we are, and in expressing our unique God-given individuality, there is no need for comparisons. How can one expression of uniqueness be more than another expression of uniqueness?

Behind this mentality of comparison is the belief that “my view of God and salvation is infallible and superior to all others, thus it could not possibly be wrong.” This is a complete unwillingness to consider that one might be wrong or that one might need to expand one’s understanding beyond a certain framework. I think this must have played a big part in why Mother Teresa could not make her mission more universal but could only see it as being within the Catholic Church.

For example, in the beginning of the book, she is very convinced that her call and visions are from God and are absolutely true. But I think we always need to be open to the fact that any vision we have can be influenced by our state of consciousness and thus we can later acquire a deeper understanding of our vision—a process that will continue as long as we are in embodiment.

Is this what you mean, and is this the consciousness you want the spiritual people to challenge?

Jesus: Correct. For there to be a revolutionary change in the collective consciousness, the most spiritually aware people must step forward and dare to challenge this consciousness in all of its obvious and subtle manifestations. Someone must dare to speak out and expose the consciousness that “we know better than God” that causes people to reject the Living Truth and the Living Word of Christ, preferring a dead word that makes them feel comfortable.

The real issue here is that the most spiritual people need to demonstrate that they will go beyond wearing religion as an overcoat—that they will become one with the Spirit of Truth and thus become “the way, the truth and the life.” Mother Teresa is seen as a great saint, and the book aims to underscore this image by showing that despite the fact that she felt her “interior darkness,” she still did all these outer works and remained loyal to the Catholic Church.

The hidden message is that it is admirable and saintly to put on a facade of being a good religious person while actually feeling different inside. Even Mother Teresa herself admitted that she was putting on a front and that if people knew what she really felt, they would see it as hypocrisy. [Mother teresa said to one of her confessors: “Rev. Father Miranda will tell you what I said. I spoke as if my heart was in love with God, tender, personal love. If you were in the place of Fr. Miranda you would have said—what hypocrisy.”]

One of the most dangerous effects of the consciousness we are addressing is precisely that it enables people to become a member of an outer religion and believe that as a result, their salvation is guaranteed, and thus they don’t have to remove the beam from their own eyes by challenging their egos and the consciousness of anti-christ. They don’t have to overcome the psychological condition that makes them a house divided against itself, they don’t have to bring their inner and outer life into harmony.

This is the complete insanity – caused by the complete spiritual blindness of the duality consciousness – that causes people to believe that if they appear good according to a standard defined by a religion on earth, God simply has to save them. It is the belief that if they can fool other people, they can also fool God. Yet those who do not wear the wedding garment of the Christ consciousness will not be allowed into the wedding feast but must remain in the outer darkness created by the illusions they refuse to surrender.

This is precisely the attitude that the Catholic Church has been based on from its inception—of pretending to be a good religious person by conforming to certain outer rules – wearing one’s religion as an overcoat – while not truly integrating and living one’s religious beliefs. This is the hypocrisy of the scribes and Pharisees that I challenged repeatedly, even stating clearly that unless your righteousness – meaning that you truly live your beliefs – exceeds that of the scribes and Pharisees, you cannot enter heaven.

What I have always been looking for is people who are willing to remove the beam from their own eyes first and who are then willing to go out and demonstrate that path – the straight and narrow way – to the world. On the one hand, Mother Teresa was sincerely longing to walk the true path of becoming one with me, but on the other hand she held on to certain beliefs that made this oneness impossible and thus caused her interior struggle. She experienced this as me abandoning her, but in reality it was her unwillingness to question everything that caused her to abandon me and cut herself off from the oneness that I continually offer to anyone who will receive it with the open heart and mind of a child.

For this book to attempt to glorify her condition is a clear demonstration of just how far the Catholic mindset is from the reality of who I am and why I came to this planet. I did NOT come to this planet to create a religion of hypocrites, who honor me with their lips but whose hearts are far from me. I came to raise up those who are genuine in their spiritual quest and who are willing to work for setting all of humanity free from the consciousness of anti-christ that keeps people separated from their God.

This also explains why Saint Germain said in California that some people have been trapped in charitable organizations, such as the Missionaries of Charity. There are many people who are not ready to manifest Christhood, and for them it can be right to work in charitable organizations for it allows them to balance karma. Yet those who are close to manifesting Christhood need to be very careful that their genuine desire to serve God does not deceive them into dedicating their lives to a charitable organization – or any other endeavor – that although doing valuable work, still serves to maintain status quo.

As a Christed being, you are NOT here to maintain status quo or to bring about evolutionary change. You are here to overturn the tables of the moneychangers in all aspects of society so you can open the way for a revolutionary change in consciousness. THAT is why I came to this planet. THAT is why I gave my life—NOT to help people cope with suffering but to empower them to remove the cause of suffering and bring the abundant life to earth.

I did not even come to save souls. I came to give people the choice between the consciousness of Christ and the consciousness of anti-christ, for only when people – knowingly – choose the Life of Christ will they qualify for salvation. I cannot save anyone against their free will, nor do I want to.

However, I do have a thirst for seeing people have a real choice because they have encountered the Living Truth and the Living Word of Christ—because someone has decided to become the open door for that flow of the Holy Spirit!

Kim: To address the questions from the beginning, will all spiritual seekers have such challenges and experience a period of prolonged darkness as they move toward Christhood?

Jesus: ALL spiritual seekers who want to attain Christhood have to surrender and leave behind ALL of the mental images that spring from the consciousness of anti-christ. So all face the challenge to see these images and then let them go. However, it is not necessary that this process leads to any interior darkness or suffering.

Any time you experience less than peace and joy, you should realize that this condition is caused by something you have not surrendered. And in most cases, suffering is caused by the fact that you have not been willing to look at a false belief or expectation, so you are resisting growth. You should actually have moved beyond that block, but because you have not seen and surrendered it, the tension keeps building and you experience it as lack of peace and joy or other forms of suffering.

How long will such a condition go on? For as long as you decide not to look at and surrender the belief that blocks your growth and keeps you trapped in a catch-22. It can be over in an instant, or it can go on for 50 years or 50 lifetimes—the choice is yours!

I want all who struggle with such conditions to contemplate Mother Teresa’s example, for she does demonstrate how intense such suffering can be. She also demonstrates that some people maintain the suffering precisely because they will not see that it is self-created. The major block for Mother Teresa was that she actually thought her suffering was put upon her by me or God. And since she did not admit that it was a self-created condition, she felt she could do nothing to escape it.

This is very much a product of the consciousness we have been discussing. People will build mental images of God and then superimpose them upon God. They then interpret everything that happens to them through the filter of those images and thus think they are victims of external conditions.

In Mother Teresa’s case, she believed she had surrendered herself completely to God, yet as Kim pointed out, she had surrendered herself to a man-made image of God. Thus, when she started suffering, she had to interpret this as a condition put upon her by God. This led to only one possible conclusion, namely that God or I wanted her to suffer, making her feel her only option was to learn to live with it and even “love the darkness,” which of course is not truly possible.

Let me make it absolutely clear that neither God nor I want ANYONE to suffer for even a second. We want all people to be free, but this can happen ONLY through people’s free-will choices. The suffering of one person CANNOT “buy” the freedom of another—each person is responsible for his or her choices and will ONLY escape suffering by consciously undoing the choices that caused their suffering. People can “choose life” only when they are willing to take full responsibility for themselves and admit that ALL limitations on earth are created by the individual and by humankind collectively, thus MUST be uncreated by people.

One of the most subtle effects of the consciousness we are discussing here is precisely that it makes people believe they are victims of external conditions—be it the devil in this world or the angry God in the sky. In reality, people are the victims of their own choices, and thus they ALWAYS have the option to change ANY condition by making a better choice, by choosing the consciousness of LIFE over the consciousness of death.

I sincerely hope that some of the people who love Mother Teresa will take these teachings to heart and thus make a real contribution to completing the work she so courageously begun, namely the work of setting people free from the spiritual poverty that is caused by the false beliefs that keep them separated from the kingdom of God – the abundant life – that is within them.

What she took on was the consciousness of separation that has kept humankind separated from God for a very long time. This is the consciousness which says that there is an impenetrable barrier between God and man and that only Christ can cross it but that this happened only once. If you study Mother Teresa’s life and philosophy, you will see that she made a very sincere effort to cross that barrier and attain a greater oneness with me—according to her vision of me. She also encouraged all members of her order to attain a sense of oneness with me, which some have indeed achieved. Yet her image of me prevented her from fully attaining oneness with me.

Mother Teresa was indeed correct in seeing that I feel the suffering of all people on earth because I am one with all people on earth, for as I said, “Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.” Thus, by serving the poor, you are indeed serving me—in the Omega aspect as explained above. What I need is for those who will go further and also attain oneness with me in the Alpha aspect—by going beyond all man-made images of Christ until they encounter and become one with the Living Christ that I AM.

Through her work, Mother Teresa did make progress in terms of resolving part of the state of consciousness that causes separation, although she did not get to the point where she could feel this personally, for reasons explained above. Yet she did not take this on and struggle with it for 50 years in order to have other people admire her for struggling with it. She took it on in order to make it easier for other people to overcome it—so get on with overcoming it. Nothing is more sad for a teacher than when the students do not dare to exceed the teacher—a problem I know something about myself, although I look forward to it changing in the foreseeable future by the students of this website living my teachings.

The motto of the ascended masters is that what one has done, all can do. Thus, all who sincerely apply themselves can receive Christ wisdom from within themselves. And when they express it, they will make a real contribution to changing the world.


Mother Teresa’s “interior darkness” – Part 3 – The subtle denial of God


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