Question: I love God and the ascended masters more and surrender to God completely. When I meditate and I feel the energy rise up in my body, I suddenly fear that my ego will die. I am afraid of what will happen if my ego completely dies. But I want to overcome this fear and to love God and the masters completely. I have heard that even if my ego dies, I will not die but will be expanded but I cannot let go of my fear. Can you please give me advice.
Answer from the Ascended Master Mother Mary through Kim Michaels. This answer was given at a conference in Seoul, Korea in 2017.
Fear that is related to spiritual growth is always an implant or a hook in your aura by fallen beings or dark forces in the emotional realm. You need to make, first of all, the decision that you realize that you are being attacked by dark forces. You need to call for spiritual protection from Archangel Michael, you need to call for Astrea to cut you free from any ties to these forces.
Then, you also need to do what we have said so many times: look at your psychological patterns. At some point you have made a decision about what would happen if your ego died. There is some reason you think you cannot live without the ego, and you need to uncover that decision. This means you first need to transform that burden of fear-based energy that is making it painful or difficult to look at the decision. Then, you need to work on getting clarity so that you see the decision and then undo it. It is NOT something that can happen automatically, but of course the many invocations we have given can certainly help you in this respect.
You have the books that have been translated to Korean, such as the one about communicating from the heart, that also goes through the seven rays and this is a good place to start. Otherwise, many of our books that contain invocations for self-healing can help you on this. It may take some time to resolve something like this because what you need to do is discover that deeper decision that caused you to doubt that you will survive if your ego dies.
What you can also consider is that it simply is not possible that your entire ego would die at once. It can only be a portion of your ego that dies. None of us can take such a giant leap that all of the ego dies in one situation. I know there are people out there who will claim that they have had a dramatic experience and they were enlightened after that experience, which they interpret to mean that they have no ego left. I just want to point out a very simple fact my beloved. If you are in physical embodiment, if you are in a physical body, you have elements of the ego left, otherwise you could not hold on to the body.
It is naive to think you can have one dramatic experience where your entire ego dies and now you are ego-free and enlightened for the rest of your lifetime. It is only that a fragment of your ego dies. If you allow yourself to believe you have no ego left, then you are almost worse off than before you had that experience. Consider here that it is only a small portion of your ego that dies and this may make it easier for you to avoid this fear.
Copyright © 2017 Kim Michaels