Question: Why does the feeling of meaningless come? When following the path, you let go of all your desires, images, goals. When you see the unreality of everything and the outplaying of free will and lose the sense to do something, to work, even make your service which you did before from the separate selves. How to connect with your I Am Presence so that it can work through us?
Answer from the Ascended Master Mother Mary through Kim Michaels. This answer was given at the 2020 Webinar for the Liberation of Women.
Well, while this question is somewhat similar, it’s a little bit different. You can come to a point where you have resolved so many of these outer selves—you have let these outer selves die, that previously gave you a motivation for following the path. In fact, we see a typical pattern in many spiritual students is that you find a spiritual path, and you have certain outer selves that are motivating you, that are driving you to follow the spiritual path, applying the teachings and tools you have found.
And then when you start working more on your psychology and understanding the deeper aspects of the path of personal Christhood, you start letting go of all of these outer desires and motivations. And as they fade away, you can go into this interval where it is like it says in the scriptures: “Vanity of vanities, all is vanity”. You see the vanity of everything on earth, you see the futility of so many human activities, how they don’t lead to anything, they don’t go anywhere. You no longer see any purpose to it.
And in a sense, this is a necessary shift to go through, but it is not necessary to be stuck in it for a long period of time. There are of course, people who become stuck in this and again, as I said in the previous answer, there comes a point where you have to make a decision. Now, some of the later books in the Healing Your Spiritual Trauma series talk about why you are on earth why your I Am Presence came to earth. You can use this to get over this phase where you reconnect to your I Am Presence and that your I Am Presence wanted to experience itself on earth.
And that can give you a new motivation where you’re not trying to do something or accomplish something on earth, but you are trying to experience life on earth, experience your own reaction to it and basically experience yourself in various situations. You can also connect to your divine plan and the motivation you had for what you wanted to do. You may want to help the ascended masters, do certain things to set other people free, you may want to help other people by telling them about various things that can help them grow, so forth and so on.
So use those last couple of books in the series, (or for that matter, use all of them in the series) and you should be able to make that decision to reconnect to your divine plan and your I Am Presence and again feel that there is actually a purpose for being on earth. It is not so my beloved, that as you approach the 144th level of consciousness, you have no sense of purpose and you don’t care about anything and nothing matters. It is just that there are certain stages on the spiritual path where what used to matter to you no longer matters, because what used to matter was what mattered to a separate self that you have now let die and therefore, there is nothing right now to replace it, but you can very quickly reconnect to something higher.
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