Question: I’ve realized that I have a self which I call the “me self”. It does not have any particular earthly characteristics, but it gives me a sense of being myself, not somebody else, or something else. It gives me a sense of continuity that after all of the changes in my self image, it is still me. For a long time, I was believing that it was the Conscious You. But I suddenly realized that this sense of being me is just a self and it needs to die. And this realization made me terrified for two weeks. I, or rather that self, was even very angry at you the ascended masters. I was shocked by my reaction, by this fear and this anger. And after contemplating this situation for weeks, I realized that what I saw was probably my ego. Am I correct? Is this sense of continuity we have on earth coming from the ego? I sense that there is more to it, but I cannot see it clearly. Could you give some higher perspective on it?
Answer from the Ascended Master Jesus through Kim Michaels. This answer was given during the 2021 Webinar for Russia – Overcoming the consciousness of Superiority and the Sense of Being Unwhole, Traumatized and Focused Outside Oneself.
There are various aspects of the ego. And you will notice that the first teachings we gave was teachings specifically on the ego. And then later we have shifted to giving these teachings on the separate selves. Naturally, you could say: What is the ego? Well, it is a collection of separate selves. But behind all of them is the self that you created when you stepped into duality.
What you need to be careful of, and what you are sensing that there is more to it, is that you must realize that there is a difference between the first self you created after stepping into duality, and the first self you created after taking physical embodiment on a planet like earth.
The first self that you created was simply a self that allowed you to express yourself through your four lower bodies. This is the self that gives you a sense of continuity so that as you grow on the spiritual path, you can still have a sense that it is the same you that is growing, and that is why you do not lose your sense of identity. Some people do, when they seek to force their growth, and they can go through an identity crisis.
Now the subtlety is that the sense of self you created after stepping into duality also gives you a sense of continuity as a separate being. When you experience the self that is angry, that fears dying, that resents the ascended masters, this is the first self that was created by you when you were going into duality. You could say that, in the terminology used in the Summit Lighthouse, that this was the core of the “Dweller on the Threshold”. It wants to prevent your growth and hold you back. It is very correct that this self has to die.
Now, in terms of the other self, the self that simply allows you to embody on a planet like earth and have a sense of continuity, it is correct that this self is not the Conscious You, but it is the first self created by the Conscious You and therefore it will be the last self the Conscious You gives up. This is the self that simply gives you a sense of continuity. It is correct that it needs to die, but it is the last self that needs to die. It is the ghost that I gave up on the cross, and that you will give up also at the 144th level of consciousness before you ascend.
You might say that the ego self, the self that was born out of duality, is hostile to your growth. The other self you are talking about that gives you the sense of continuity is actually a part of your growth, it is even facilitating your growth. You need it in order to integrate with the four lower bodies, you need it in order to have that sense of continuity on earth. And it is also the kind of self that gives you your unique vantage point.
This is what we attempted to explain during the Christhood conference, where we said that two people can reach a certain level of Christhood, but still have different viewpoints on certain issues. Because one person looks at it from a certain vantage point, and one person looks at it from another vantage point. It is not that one is right and the other wrong. It is not that one is better than the other. It is simply different ways of looking at it.
I am not talking about dualistic viewpoints, I am talking about that even when you reach a certain level of Christhood, you can have what we have called the localized perspective. It is similar to what you can all see when you are looking through your physical eyes, you may be sitting across from a particular person, that person is looking at you and is seeing you, you are not seeing yourself you are seeing the other person. They are just two different perspectives. It is not that one is right and one is wrong, it is meaningless to apply that evaluation. It is not that one is better than the others, but one is just yours.
As long as you are in embodiment, on an unnatural planet, even for that matter on a natural planet, you must look at life from a localized perspective. And this was the self you created to give you that localized perspective when you took embodiment, and it is the last self you give up.
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