Question: I feel much difficulty on my healing path. Since I was a child, I have felt burdened, traumatized, tormented. I dedicated my life to working on that with all existing approaches, be they psychological, medical, spiritual, energetic. And I have gained some progress. In addition, I have many memories of my previous lifetimes. Nevertheless, I must recognize that I still have a very long way to feeling just normal enough to live a life without spending most of my time and energy on working on myself and seeking psychological healing. It has been very frustrating because every time I work on something, even if I feel I do it with every possible effort and as deeply as I can, for example, on applying myself for almost a year on your book, Healing Your Spiritual Traumas, and receiving many revelations on my birth traumas, the same topic comes back again as if I have done nothing to transform the consciousness underneath. For example, I recently suffered the same injury at a one month’s difference at the same location. Even if I may not have dissolved entirely the related separate selves, why on earth suffer the same injury before I have had time to transcend it? How is it possible that there are things I do not see when I dedicate my life to it? I sometimes feel my work acts on the most superficial areas of my psychology. That deep inside, the primal self or whatever consciousness feels the most hurt, will not let anything in and clings to its traumas no matter what I do. What can I do to take it down and have a chance to get closer to my ascension?
Answer from the Ascended Master Mother Mary through Kim Michaels. This answer was given during the 2025 Holland Conference.
It is quite possible that you can have layers of the psyche, layers of the subconscious mind, layers of subconscious selves. It is possible that you can start at a more surface level of the subconscious mind. You can work through certain issues at that level and you are making progress because you are resolving something. But then there can be a deeper layer that comes up later. This is why you can have this situation where you thought you had resolved something, and then after some time the same thing comes up again.
It does not mean that you have not made progress. It just means that the work is not done. Now, we have at this conference given the teaching that the Conscious You can adopt a certain general view of life, and it is therefore, possible that before you even came to earth you had a certain attitude to life, a certain view of life on earth and what you could do here. And it is possible that you have a deeper trauma than the ones you have contacted so far, where you felt that your expectations for coming to earth were disappointed in such an ultimate way, that it was unbearable to look at it. And therefore, you, so to speak, sealed off the separate selves you created there, and you have not gotten down to that layer. We can say that many people who have been exposed to trauma can go into this reaction where they do not want to look at the trauma because it is too painful and overwhelming. This can apply to these deeper layers. At the deepest layer you have something that was so painful to you, so overwhelming that you are afraid to look at it.
The only thing you can do in such cases is to keep approaching it gradually so not to push it too hard so you get overwhelmed by the energy. You may also need to consider that you will need a therapist of some kind to guide you through it. But what you can also do is start working on this general attitude to life. What is the general view you have of earth, your being here, what you can do and cannot do here?
There are people of course who have some very deep traumas that they are afraid to look at. It is often because they have a certain sense that there is something hiding there, but if they saw it, they would condemn themselves for having that psychological issue. And therefore, you are afraid to look at that core.
Just to give you an example, there are over the many years and different spheres certain fallen beings who have come to a point where they are willing to walk the upward path. They are willing to work on their psychology, and they are making progress. But there is still a certain mechanism, namely the mechanism that caused them to fall, that they are afraid to look at.
This can apply both to avatars and earth inhabitants as well. Basically, you need to find, first of all, a balanced approach, so you do not push it so hard that it becomes overwhelming. But you also need to begin to ask the questions you are reluctant to ask. And you need to gradually look at this from different angles until you come to a point where you have identified the essential question in your psychology that you are afraid to ask. And then you need to build up the willingness to ask that question. And I understand that it can seem very dangerous to ask that question. But as we have said before, the original trauma, nothing could ever be as bad as that again. It is really a matter of once you look at it, you can overcome it. There is no trauma that is so bad that you cannot overcome it. There is nothing in your psychology that you cannot overcome. That is what we have said again and again at this conference and many times previously.
There are people, for example, who are afraid to ask the question: “Am I a fallen being?” But, if you are afraid to ask that question, how will you ever know? If you are a fallen being and you are afraid to ask the question, how will you resolve the psychological mechanism that caused you to fall? Whether you are a fallen being or not, you have to work towards a point where you can ask the question neutrally. And then you can realize that even if the answer is “yes”, it does not matter. Because the mechanism that caused you to fall is not different than the mechanism that caused an avatar to create the birth trauma and the primal self. It just happened a longer time ago, and therefore, it could be encapsulated in more layers of the psyche. But it is still just a decision that can be replaced by a more aware decision. But how will you make a more aware decision until you look at that original mechanism, and ask the question you are afraid to ask? Whatever it is for you individually, you can gradually work towards the recognition that there is a certain question you are reluctant to ask, and then you can work towards the point where you can ask that question.
And whatever the answer is, you know you can transcend it, because you can transcend any decision by making a more aware decision. I am not in any way saying that the person asking the question is a fallen being. I am simply using it as an example, because there are people on the spiritual path on earth today who are fallen beings, who have started the path of returning home. And therefore, once you have started the path, you are not really a fallen being anymore, but you just have not resolved that original trauma. An avatar that comes to earth creates the birth trauma, but a being who falls also creates a birth trauma. And it is still just a psychological mechanism. There is really nothing to be afraid of, but nevertheless, many people do have a certain question in their psychology they are afraid to ask. And only by making that conscious, and then gradually building up the courage to ask the question, can you get out of this kind of sense of being stuck that you are describing.
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