Question: Guru Ma has spoken in her final embodiment about going before Alpha and Omega when she was preparing to take her first embodiment on planet earth. I would like to know more about what were her specific reasons for wanting to come to earth. Were they the same as or different to this current messengers reasons? Looking back now, how does she view her desire for wanting to take embodiment on earth? Would she say that she too had an incomplete understanding about free will? Did she too believe that she was coming to earth to change something here but in truth, like this messenger and all of us she came to change something about herself namely to attain a more complete understanding about free will and how free will works itself out on a planet like earth? Or were there other things as well, that were specific to her lifestream that she needed to learn and that she learned?
Answer from the Ascended Master Guru Ma through Kim Michaels. This answer was given during the 2024 Easter webinar
Well, when you ascend you drastically change your perspective on life, on earth, on yourself because you see things that you simply cannot see while you are in physical embodiment. Clearly while I was in physical embodiment, I had a certain view of why I was on earth, what I was here to do and I have after ascending or even before ascending, as a way of qualifying for my ascension seen the limitations of that view. What I see today is very simple.
Before I ascended, I had a need, a desire to feel that I was doing something special for the planet. I thought I was a specially evolved lifestream, that I had a special mission and many of my followers thought so and many of them still do. But if you look at it honestly this is not that different from what many avatars think about who we are and why we came to earth. As the masters have explained in this dispensation we came from a natural planet, we had a reason for coming here which was we wanted to make a difference and improve something on earth. We saw the suffering, we felt compassion for the suffering and we thought we really could make a difference.
Then we come to earth, we are shocked by the birth trauma, we begin to doubt that we can really do anything significant here and so we have a need to compensate for this sense of loss by making ourselves seem special by walking the path very earnestly, by doing significant things in the world. You can see in world history that many people, many known people have had this desire. Even many scientists or authors or philosophers who had this need to feel that they had done something unique, something really special.
All I am saying is that today I very clearly see that this was just not that different for me than it was for most avatars. It is a typical avatar reaction. I also see that regardless of what I may have believed when I was in embodiment regardless of what many of my followers still believe about me, I was just a typical avatar. I was not special compared to many other avatars.
And I did come here with a certain view in my mind of accomplishing something but I also had things that I needed to work out in my own psychology including relating to free will. But also, many avatars we have a certain sense that we can accomplish something on earth. But based on the history of the I AM presence on a natural planet, the I AM presence often tends to focus on a specific spiritual ray or God quality that it seeks to develop.
Each avatar can have this sense that we are here to accomplish something on earth and we are going to do it this way by using our particular God flame or God quality. This gives us a certain approach to earth. And you can see if you look at my last embodiment how I was very determined, very willpower, very focused and very dedicated. But also, in an unbalanced way. Just like the cosmic joke of El Morya and Kuthumi going up the mountain and El Morya not retaining the message because he was too direct and blue-ray.
You can debate whether these were El Morya’s qualities or whether it was qualities that I projected on El Morya because that was the qualities that I had. But let that aside for now. Each of us has a certain desire to accomplish something and a certain vision that we can accomplish this through our particular God quality. It can be helpful for you to look at yourself and say: “Well what is then my belief about how I can accomplish something positive on earth”. And it is not that this is an illusion. Obviously the God qualities are real but it is just that again on an unnatural planet with free will it is not realistic to think that one God quality is the solution to all problems. What you can strive for is to have a broader palette of tools so you are not attached to one quality but have more of a balance between several or even all of the seven rays.
And if I look back and say well I certainly could have done this. When you are an ascended master, you do not look back with regret because if you had regrets you would have to reincarnate. But I can certainly see that I could have done things differently by striving for more of a balance. But I was not able to do that in my last embodiment because I was so fixated in my mind on being a messenger, running this organization, making a difference for the masters in this very turbulent time with the Cold War, with the portents of a nuclear war or larger scale war between the Soviet Union and the West and so forth. I was so focused on these outer things that I did not really have enough, or I did not take, enough time to look at myself and say: “How can I grow? Is what I am doing really the optimum way of fulfilling my role? Or is there a need to change something to strive for more balance?”
And basically you can say in general that most avatars as I said, they come with a focus on a certain quality. You go through the birth trauma and now you want to compensate and you think the way to compensate is to take your God quality to the greatest possible extreme or expression. And all avatars can benefit from considering taking a more balanced approach. Not just focusing on one ray or one quality but seeking balance between all of the rays. This would be what I would want to say for now about this topic.
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