Comment: Yesterday when we encountered the experience with the Great Divine Director, and what he put so beautifully forward is that his kind of love is not only unconditional but not compromising. He is what he is. That was so profound. And this morning I combined it with Mary, who says love yourself. And I noticed that I thought I loved myself, but nevertheless I was compromising myself always to adjust my way of expressing love to others to my perception of how others should expect me to love them. And then I got scared because I encountered my own spirit, who said if you change yourself to your real you and love who you really are, then people get scared of you and they run away and you will lose your relationship. And you will lose the whole bunch. So I had to go through that spirit to transcend that part of me too. Then I got close to myself, and it was a new level of loving yourself. That’s how I experienced it.
This answer was given by Kim Michaels at a conference in Holland.
Kim: I also remember many times having this thought: “Oh, if I really express who I am, it’ll be too much for people. They will reject it.” And I think that goes back to the birth trauma that Master MORE was talking about, how we came here to bring the light and the fallen beings rejected it. So we’re afraid that everybody is going to do that, and we may even think that we should hide it because it’s not good enough, or it’s not appropriate to express it on this earth, or whatever.
Comment: The fact is, I have experienced it personally on both sides of the middle. When you’re in a state where you have problems with yourself, you’re battling with yourself, and someone expresses unbelievable love to you, it’s too much. You start crying because it’s an empty space and no limits. And the other way around – when I express love to people, sometimes it’s just too much, they can’t cope with that. And I feel a little bit almost ashamed to be there.
Kim: Yes, embarrassed is what I feel. I know exactly what you mean, yes. I’ve gone through the same thing, and I’ve thought about this a lot. I know I even had a thought that nobody can handle me if I really express my light, because it’s too intense. My energy is too intense for people to handle. But I think the solution is that wisdom of the Mother, because there is a balance to be found. It’s like when you are suppressing yourself, when you are limiting yourself, you can’t let the light from your Presence stream through. So you need to free yourself from that.
But when you get to that point, it doesn’t mean it always has to be expressed at full force. That’s what she was saying, that the wisdom of the Mother recognizes conditions as they are. So you meet a certain person and your tendency is to just blast them with love. And the wisdom of the Mother comes in and tunes in to what that person can handle. Because it’s not a matter of making that person jump from where they are now to the top of the staircase. It’s a matter of making them take the next step. So what do they need to take that next step? To me that’s the wisdom of the Mother.
Comment: And that’s the wisdom I don’t resonate with yet enough. It’s like I switch this on and off.
Kim: Haven’t we all, when we found the spiritual path, become so enthusiastic we want everybody to see what we’re seeing? And so we turn people away, because they’re just so scared by all this energy we’re putting out. Or they see that we have changed and they don’t want to change. They don’t want to hear what we’re saying. So I think it’s that balance there.
Comment: There’s a person I know who came home one night to a situation where his wife was exactly like that, way over the top, and he didn’t act that way. He acted the other way. He said, “What is it? What have you found? Show me this.” And he found the path as well through her. She found the path, was exuberant to the nth degree. He came home wondering why his wife was so bubbly and said, “Show me,” and she said, “This is it.”
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