Question: I feel especially recently that my separate selves are pulling me in two directions until I feel I am losing my mind and I do not know how to make a decision of what to do. I do not know how to hear what to do from my I AM Presence instead of the selves. How do I surrender? My questions are: what specific book teaching can I read to help me resolve these selves so I can allow the Holy Spirit to flow? I realized I am angry with the ascended masters for abandoning me here with the pain I have been through. How do I ask them for help and connect with them when I am mad at them for what feels like abandonment?
Answer from the Ascended Master Mother Mary through Kim Michaels. This answer was given during the 2024 Easter webinar.
Well, the books that are meant to help you deal with the subconscious selves are Healing Your Spiritual Traumas and the other three books in that series ending with Making Peace with Being on Earth. And so, I suggest you start with Healing Your Spiritual Traumas, read them, do the exercises and see where that takes you. But you also have to realize here that you have to be willing to make decisions in order to overcome the selves that are paralyzing you and making you feel like you are pulled in different directions. This is a division in your psyche. It is two selves that are trying to paralyze you so you cannot make a decision. And so, obviously you have to work on resolving the selves but you also have to develop this willingness to make your own decisions regardless of the outcome. You cannot have this attitude that many spiritual people have that before you make a decision you want to be sure that it turns out right. And this actually ties into your second question of how you can ask the ascended masters for help when you are angry with them and feel abandoned, biased. As we have explained in several teachings including in these books that I am talking about, we have not abandoned you. You are the one who decided to go below the 48th level of consciousness and go into separation and therefore, you abandoned your connection to us. We could do nothing but respect your free will.
So, you have to be willing to do this and that means again taking responsibility for the fact that in past lifetimes you made these choices to go into separation. We are not blaming you, we are not judging you, as Cyclopea so clearly expressed earlier today, but you need to come to the point where you are not judging yourself and projecting your judgment on yourself, on the ascended masters, that we are the ones who did something to you. This is part of taking responsibility for your own growth. And when you do make that decision and do use our teachings and tools to get rid of this self that is projecting that you were abandoned by us, then you will be able to ask us for help and you will receive it. You can for that matter ask us for help now and you will receive it as you are open to hearing it. But these selves that are dividing you are probably going to block you from hearing us from within yourself and that is why you need to use the outer tools and work on resolving these selves.
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