Question: How did Kim communicate with the masters when it first happened? And, the second question is about, did Kim make a conscious decision that he wanted to know about his past lives?
Answer from Kim Michaels. This answer was given during the 2023 Kazakhstan Conference.
Let’s take the last one first. I actually do not know very much about my past lives. I know I have had past lives, but very little about specifics. My attitude is, if the masters want to tell me and show me a past life because I need to see it in order to learn something, I am totally open to that. But I am not asking for it, and I am not doing anything like regression or anything like that to find out what I did in past lives, because my attitude really is, that it does not matter. You know, it really does not matter what I did in the past because my goal is to ascend, and that means leaving everything on earth behind. What does it matter whether I was an important person in the past or not?
I have observed this in spiritual people, you know, from when I was first in Transcendental Meditation, that some people get obsessed with finding out who they were in a past life because they want to be really important. I remember there was, back in Denmark, there was a woman I knew. She was in the Summit (Lighthouse), and before she was in the Summit, she had met these two people that had developed this method. They could look at a painting of a historical person and then look at your face as it is now, and then they could see you had been that person in a past life. At first, I thought this was really fascinating, but then after some time I thought, does it really make sense that us three people here in this little town in Denmark, we have been all the important people of history? And that stuck with me, you know.
Then when you got into the Summit in the early days, many of the people who were on staff or came to conferences, they were told who they had been in a past life. But then at a certain point, that stopped. And that means you now had this strange dynamic. I remember when I first came to the Summit, one person said: “You see that guy over there? He was Abraham Lincoln.” And I thought: “Okay, so what am I really going to do with that information? How am I going to treat this person based on the fact that he was Abraham Lincoln? I mean, maybe I was Booth, the guy who shot him.” In that case, I could apologize. But other than that, what would I really do with that?
It came to the point where I saw that this person had been that person, and this person had been that person. And it was a little bit like this, you know. Why did they stop telling people about their past lives? Maybe they just ran out of famous people. That was my joke, at least.
I think there is a certain sort of dynamic there. We often start the spiritual path by having sort of an inferiority complex because we were put down in society. We find the spiritual teaching, and now we want to feel we are special. Some people approach past lives this way. They want to have been a famous person so they can feel special. And I just thought: “Ah, you know, I do not really need to go into that.”
Sandy, you said you had visited the Summit a couple of years ago. And what was it that somebody gave you a tour?
Sandy: Yeah well, you can go there and ask for a tour if you are not a member, which I was not. I was introduced to a lady who had been Brahms, the composer, in a past life. I met a person who was Frederick Douglass. There was the painter, Tom, who painted the portraits of Elizabeth and Mark, he had been Franz Liszt, the composer. [
Kim: there were many of these old staff members that were told they were all these people. And you know, at some point it stopped, which means you now had this elite that had been told who they were in their past lives, and then all the newcomers, and they could never match that. I just thought it was a very unhealthy dynamic. The reason I bring it up is they are apparently still stuck in this. They are still talking about who was who in the past life. You can create a new book of who’s who and trace all the past lifetimes.
Communication with the masters.
I think actually it depends on what you mean with communication with the masters, because I think all of us get certain promptings, intuitive promptings, even as children, and some of those come from the masters, some from your I AM Presence. For me, for a long time, it was just sort of a thought that came to me. It often came in words, because I am more thinking in terms of words than images. Some people are more visual, I am more auditory. I cannot remember right now, specific incidents, but in the beginning, it would just be like short instructions. I was talking about (the insight that I) do not have to do anything on earth. To me, that was also a communication from the masters, to help me see this. Often it would be like these short instructions.
Oh, I actually remember one time, it would often be when there was something I could not understand. For example, I remember coming to the Summit Lighthouse in 1987 to their headquarters in Montana, and I did not know that much about it before I came from Denmark, what it was like. When I came there and saw how big of an organization it is, how many people were there, how they had just moved to the ranch in Montana from their headquarters in California. Things were still not really settled, a little bit chaotic, a little bit messy. I also came just before they were having this big summer conference where 3,000 people came in. Things were very chaotic, and overwhelming, when you came as a newcomer.
After I’d been there a couple of days, I went down to the river and I sat down and looked at the water and I kind of felt my mind calm down. Then I just sent a thought to El Morya, and it was not like a clearly formulated thought. It was just like: “What is going on? Help me make sense of this. How can I deal with this overwhelming experience?” I guess what I was subconsciously saying is: “How can this be an ascended master organization and how can it survive? How can it function?” The thought that came back to me was that: “As long as the organization has a direct connection to us, to the ascended masters, it will be okay.” It was not trying to say there is no chaos, but it said that it cannot go too far as long as it has connection with us—that is, too far into a negative state. It came to me very, very clearly and it had an immediate impact on me and I just accepted: “Okay, things are the way they are, I just have to adjust and make the best of it.”
It also came back to me after Elizabeth Clare Prophet retired and they no longer had a messenger, they did not get a new messenger. And I actually felt at that point I was done. I was done with the Summit and I needed to move away and I did. I saw how the organization went through this very tumultuous period with a lot of power plays where certain people were fired or frozen out of the organization and some of the old staffers took over.
Anyway, that was a tangent, but that was just what I can remember right now was my first really clear communication from the masters.
Then I had another incident that I described before while I was at the Summit. Elizabeth Clare Prophet challenged my ego in a certain way and it does not matter with the outer situation, but I decided I was going to not try to defend myself, not try to argue, I was just going to accept what she said and look at my own psychology. Then I went into a Summit University class. They were watching a movie about one of El Morya’s past incarnations, Thomas Beckett. I just sat down there and then I just felt like I just let go, I felt this release. Then I felt this overwhelming love coming and I really felt it was from El Morya and I was just enveloped, tears were flowing down my eyes and I just felt completely enveloped in this unconditional love. And there was no words there. I felt that he was showing me that this is the love the masters have for all of us when we transcend a part of the human self instead of going into trying to defend it or explain it away.
Because it is really a big break for me that I’d always been good at arguing, you know, and analyzing, coming up with intellectual arguments, but I just decided: “No, I am not going to do that, I am just going to look at myself.” And that really stayed with me and ever since then, this has been my modus operandi on the spiritual path. I always look at myself and I always have this with me that I know when I give up something, some part of the human self, that is what the masters love, that is what the masters want, and that is really the essence of the path.
Over the years, when I was thinking about a certain problem or had a certain question, it would take some time sometimes but I would get this worded expression, very clear, concise: “Oh, that is how it is.”
I remember one time, I do not remember what I was thinking about, Oh yeah, I do remember, I was thinking about the will of God because in the Summit they were big on the will of God. I always felt it was not the highest understanding they had because they always portrayed it as, there is this external God who has a will for you and it is the ego that causes you to rebel against the will of God and therefore you need to submit your own will to the will of God. It was almost black and white, like you either have an independent will, that is of the ego, or you submit to the will of God. I could not have explained it back then, but what I can see now is: Why does an individual’s will have to be based on separation and duality? It can also be based on who you are as an individual. I mean, you are not rebelling against God, you are just expressing your individuality.
I had worked on this, I had wrestled with this question and one day I said: “Okay God, I am willing to do your will. I am willing to let go of my outer will and do your will. Just show me what your will is and I’ll do it.” Then there was this silence, then out of the silence came these words: “What if the will of God is that you make your own decisions?” That was a shock to me too. I mean, it took me a long time to process this because it really made me realize that it was just too easy to say my will is of the ego and I need to surrender to the will of God, because you become a robot. This is not the Christ that says this, because as the Christ you have to discern what is the right thing in this, and not even what is the right thing, but what do I want to do in this situation? Not about what does God want to do because God is not in my body, I am. It is for me to decide and it is I make my own decisions and learn from them that I grow. I do not grow by submitting to this superior will up there. That is not why we are embodiment.
The next really big breakthrough was when I started working with Jesus and doing the website. And that was also the same thing and I can see the pattern now, that whenever I have had real communication from the masters it is when I was in the situation where I surrendered something.
I described this before so you probably already read it, but just briefly, I came to this point where I saw that so much of my striving on the spiritual path had been driven by a human ambition to be special, to be a good student. And… I just let it go. I felt something in me broke and I just let all that ambition go. I had this moment where I felt that even though I had always had this need to feel I was doing something worthwhile on earth, I could let that go too. There was nothing I really wanted to do on earth. I actually had this feeling from inside: “God you can take me home right now.” If I had left the planet (this was in 2001 I think, no 2002) if I had left the planet I would have had no regrets. I felt that I could leave. That was when I then felt Jesus’ presence and he said: “Well, if there is not something you personally want to do on earth, are you willing to do something for me?” That is when I started training to do the website and the questions and answers.
I see the pattern. It is that I am wrestling with some question, I am asking for some direction, and then I surrender, I let it go. When I surrender, there is room in my mind that the direction can come, because you do not have all the outer thoughts that are in the way. You do not have an intention of what answer you should get back. It is again, the more neutral you can be, the clearer the answer will be, because sometimes I think we even block the answer subconsciously. When we come to this point where we are surrendering our opinions and beliefs about how things should be, then there is the opening where the communication can happen.
There is always a danger in telling something like this. I remember this from the Summit, where Elizabeth Claire Prophet would talk about how she became a messenger and how she first met the masters. Of course, in the Summit, there was this whole consciousness that she was so special, and the danger is that people can think: Oh, I could not have something like that.”
But look at what I am saying here. It is not really that what I have gotten is so special or so epically important. It is just that the pattern is, I think about something, and then I ask the masters, and then I let go of my opinions about what answer I should get. Then I get some kind of impulse.
I think many of you have had the same thing. I think all of you can have it, because the masters, they want to help all of you grow. You see what I am saying, do not build it up that: “Oh, yeah, Kim is the messenger. Of course, he had communication from the masters. But I have not had it, so there must be something wrong with me.” The only thing wrong with you is that you have not surrendered something. You have not opened your mind to something so you can hear it, because the masters want to help you grow. They want to help all of us.
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