The masters are saying that we have separate selves, and that when we get rid of these selves, we will see reality. Do you personally experience that?
Answer from Kim Michaels. This answer was given during the 2023 Kazakhstan Conference.
I do, not necessarily all the time, because I do not claim that I am free of separate selves, because as I see it, we will have some separate selves, or at least one, until we reach the 144th level. I am not even concerned about where I am at—how close I am to the 144th level. I do not even think that way. But I can also see in myself that I have changed tremendously in the time I have been on the spiritual path, and especially since I became a messenger and have received all of these teachings from the masters.
I can also see that all of these many years that I was on the spiritual path, I was making progress, but I have made much more progress since we have received these teachings on the separate selves and the birth trauma and avatars. Especially in the last three or four years, I feel I have had a lot of breakthroughs.
And really what has happened is simply, as the masters say, I have become more neutral. And that means many things. It means, for example, that I do not have all these human opinions that I used to have. I am more free to look at situations from a more neutral perspective. I do not say I can always be neutral, but many times I can. But it also really means that I do not have this facade or appearance that I have to put on and that I have to defend. And for me that is been the most liberating. And I have come to see that this is one of the challenges or dilemmas on the spiritual path. Because why are we spiritual people? It is because we are willing to look at ourselves. And I can look back at my life and see that even when I was a child, I was always willing to look at myself. What could I improve? How could I change? And this means you are very focused on yourself. It is almost inevitable. You become very focused on yourself, always looking at: Should I have said that? Could I have done better? But that also easily leads you to create this image of what it means to be a spiritual person.
And then you have to try to live up to that image. And that means you always have this facade or this appearance that you are putting on and you have to defend it. And I can see, when I look back, how this was a burden for me. I spent a lot of my limited mental capacity thinking about this and defending this image. And it was especially a challenge for me because after I became a messenger–I came from the background of The Summit Lighthouse where they had a very specific view of what it meant to be a messenger, sort of very high up there. She was very, very special. And I had, quite frankly, a lot of idolatry of it. And I knew I did not want to be a messenger like that, but it was still a challenge for me because it was still sort of an appearance of what it means to be a messenger. I was very aware of people’s expectations of what they expected from me in my position. And, of course, over the years I have run into certain people who suddenly started challenging me and saying: “Oh, you are not a messenger, a messenger would not do this, or would not say this.”
What has happened in the last two or three years is that this has just faded away. I have had some breakthroughs where I saw some separate selves and I just let them go. And the result is that today I feel much more free. I feel I can be myself. I am not so concerned about it. And if you want to see an example of it, just look at these YouTube videos I did because I could not have made those videos three or four years ago because I would have been too much into analyzing: “Should I have said that? Was that the right thing? Could I have said something better? How are people going to react to this?” And now when I make these videos, I do not think at all about how people are going to react to them. I am just expressing myself. This is coming from who I am, my being, and I am not concerned about the reaction I get. I am not concerned about whether people like it or not. I just feel it is a joy to express it. It is not just that we see reality, but also that we are more free to be ourselves when we get rid of the separate selves.
Because, of course, what keeps us from being ourselves is all these separate selves that are pulling us into reacting. And when I say we are being ourselves, I mean partly that we are more of an open door for the I AM Presence, but also that the Conscious You is liberated from all of these separate selves. For every separate self that says: “You should be like this,” there is another one that says: “You should not be like this.” And now I feel that my Conscious You is just much more free to express what I want to express and not worry about it.
And in terms of your question about seeing reality, I do feel I see things much more clearly than I did before because I am much more neutral about it. Instead of projecting that I want things to be a certain way, I just observe. And then I look at a situation in the world and then I just tune in to my I AM Presence or the masters and I sense the vibration. It is more like a vibration of energy that they have. And then I have a totally different perspective on the situation.
When you see through the Conscious You, do you realize that you are making a switch from yourself to the Conscious You?
Well, the Conscious You is myself. That is the core of my lower being here. There is also the I AM Presence which is the larger self, but here in embodiment the Conscious You is me. This is who I am. I do not see through the Conscious You. I am the Conscious You seeing. But there is, of course, a big switch from seeing through a separate self and then being free from that separate self and now you just see as you are. It is actually an important question because it is not like the Conscious You has any structure or individuality as such, but it still has an individual perspective on the world. In other words, I am sitting here, I am looking at the world from this point. You are standing there looking at the world from your point, just to make it physical. If I am free of separate selves and you are free of separate selves, it does not mean that we see the same thing or look at things the same way.
It is not that we become alike. We are still individuals. We still have an individual I AM Presence. But it is just that after I became more free, I do not feel threatened by other people looking at life differently. I do not feel I have to defend myself. I do not feel I have to change their minds. When I talk to people, I am not trying to change their minds. I am just trying to share how I see it. And then I feel free, however they react. I do not feel like I have to persuade that person. I can just say, okay, let them have that viewpoint. It is not something I have to change in other people. And I do not have to defend myself. That is the biggest thing. The biggest thing for me was that I could see before–and again, I am not saying I am totally free of these separate selves–I had a certain world view or way of looking at life that I was very attached to. It was like when I was in situations where I talked to people, I would evaluate: “Does it validate my view of life or does it threaten it?”
And if I felt it was threatened, I felt I had to defend it or persuade other people. And now I am just more free when I interact with people because I do not have to defend this. You do not have to look at life the way I do. By setting you free, I am setting myself free. But I can really only set you free when I first set myself free because I do not have to defend anything. For me it has been very liberating—it has been a big relief to have that freedom that I do not have to defend myself or change things. Once in a while I still see a separate self, but then it becomes easier for me to identify it as a separate self and then do something about it.
It is like there was a time when I was reluctant to see certain things in my psychology because I felt that there were certain things I should not have. But now it is like whatever is there, let’s just see it and get beyond it and get rid of it. And that is also a liberation where you are not trying to put on this facade, you are not trying to avoid seeing something in yourself.
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