Spiritual cause and cure for depression

TOPICS: Walking the path means feeling unsatisfied by worldly pursuits - all is vanity - your desire to leave behind dualistic mind - cannot serve two masters - Jesus went through depression - doing something for others or a cause - your first task is to build up yourself - the second task is to serve others - becoming self-absorbed - only way out is to look beyond the self - find the point of love within you - you are needed -

Question: I thought i had conquered depression but it seems i haven't. Now I in no way want to kill myself nor do i have cravings to smoke, do drugs or drink alcohol. I have simply become tired. I have become fed up with it all. I’m tired of the world. Many times i want nothing more to be blown out and become with the All. If God is an ocean and im a drop of it , i want back in. I know i have a task to complete before im allowed to go HOME for a rest, but i simply hate the fact that ill have to come back.

So i was wondering if you could tell me what going on, If you know anything as to why im having a hard go at it. I don't want sympathy or to be taken care of, i just would like to know my present strains that im going through. I've always had an urge to leave and just get away. you know like you went to the desert, i feel kind of drawn to the forest.


Answer from ascended master Jesus through Kim Michaels:


My beloved brother, you are simply describing a process that most lifestreams go through as they reach the higher levels of the spiritual path. There comes a point where the lifestream begins to realize that it longs for more than the pleasures of this world. The lifestream truly begins to see the reality behind the following statements from the Bible:


Vanity of vanities, saith the Preacher, vanity of vanities; all is vanity. (Eccelsiastes 1:2)

I have seen all the works that are done under the sun; and, behold, all is vanity and vexation of spirit. (Eccelsiastes 1:14)

I said in mine heart, Go to now, I will prove thee with mirth, therefore enjoy pleasure: and, behold, this also is vanity. (Eccelsiastes 2:1)

Then I looked on all the works that my hands had wrought, and on the labor that I had labored to do: and, behold, all was vanity and vexation of spirit, and there was no profit under the sun. (Eccelsiastes 2:11)

Then said I in my heart, As it happeneth to the fool, so it happeneth even to me; and why was I then more wise? Then I said in my heart, that this also is vanity. (Eccelsiastes 2:15)

Therefore I hated life; because the work that is wrought under the sun is grievous unto me: for all is vanity and vexation of spirit. (Eccelsiastes 2:17)


This is a state of consciousness that I described in the following statement:


If any man come to me, and hate not his father, and mother, and wife, and children, and brethren, and sisters, yea, and his own life also, he cannot be my disciple. (Luke 14:26)


As you ascend the spiritual path, the lifestream inevitably reaches the point of no return when it realizes that it can no longer live as an ordinary human being who is absorbed in the pleasures and the pains of the world. It wants to leave behind this world, but the underlying drive behind this feeling is that the lifestream wants to leave behind the lower consciousness of the dualistic mind. It is this consciousness that makes everything in this world seem like vanity. And truly, as long as a person is trapped in the dualistic mind, everything is vanity.

Therefore, there comes a point on the spiritual path when the lifestream begins to “hate” those parts of its life that are based on the dualistic mind, and it is at that point that the lifestream can truly reach for the Christ consciousness. As I said, the lifestream cannot serve two masters, so until it decides that it wants to leave behind the dualistic mind, it cannot be a true disciple of the Christ consciousness.

This state of consciousness is very common among lifestreams who have embodied on the earth for a long time. They look upon the various activities that are available on this planet, and their inner reaction is “Been there, done that.” They feel they have nothing more they want to do on this planet, and they long to move on out of the limitations that are inevitable in this world.

I can understand why many people feel this way because I went through this process myself 2,000 years ago. You will know that between my appearance in the Temple at the age of 12 and my appearance at the marriage in Cana, the New Testament says nothing about where I was and what I did. During those 17 "lost" years I did indeed go through a period of severe depression in which I battled the very consciousness you are describing.

What helped me escape this state of lifestream depression, and what has helped every other lifestream who has faced this problem, is that I eventually came to a point where I realized that even though there was nothing I personally wanted to do on this planet, there was much I could do for others. I could also help God bring his kingdom to earth.

You see my friend, as I described in another discourse, there comes a point where a lifestream can no longer learn unless it starts teaching others. As Mother Mary explains in her magnificent discourse, a lifestream can reach a point from where the only way to go further is to become the servant of all.

When a lifestream first descends to earth, that lifestream has a very self-centered task. It is the task of the lifestream to gather experiences and build a strong and firm sense of identity. In other words, the lifestream needs to be focused on itself, the lifestream needs to be self-centered, in order to build a firm sense of identity. There are indeed many lifestreams on earth who are fully absorbed in this task, and although they might seem self-centered or selfish, they are actually doing what they need to be doing, given their present stage of spiritual development.

Yet as a lifestream continues to grow, there comes a point where it has built a firm foundation, a firm sense of identity. One might say that the lifestream has filled in the matrix of the 4-fold vehicle, and it is now firmly anchored in its sense of identity. At that point, the lifestream really has no way to grow by continuing to focus on itself. Therefore, the lifestream can go in one of two directions:

  • • If the lifestream continues to focus on itself, it will inevitably sink into a sense of hopelessness, despair, a sense of having no purpose or meaning, and this will inevitably lead to depression. Many people, especially in the New Age field, have reached this point and they enter a seemingly endless spiral of a self-centered quest for the ultimate spiritual experience, causing them to continually take classes or engage in psychological healing. Yet despite all their efforts, they never experience personal fulfillment, and the reason is that they seek it in a self-centered way instead of going beyond the human self to the divine self—which is one with all life and therefore finds fulfillment in helping others.
  • • The other option is that the lifestream can transcend its limited sense of self and realize that no lifestream is an island. When you have built a strong sense of who you are as an individual lifestream, the next logical step is to build on that foundation and develop a strong sense of who you are in connection to God and in connection to the world in which you live. At that point, you can reach for the Christ consciousness, which eventually makes you see that God is in everything that was ever created. This gives you a strong sense of connection to other people and to the earth Mother.

It was precisely this growing sense of compassion that allowed me to personally escape the sense of having no purpose, the sense of depression. It was the sense of compassion that caused me to return to Israel and take on the role of being the representative of the Living Christ on earth. It was the sense of compassion that made me willing to go all the way and even give my life for the cause of awakening humankind to the reality of the Christ consciousness.

My beloved friend, you – and many other lifestreams like you – have come to a crossroads in the evolution of your lifestream. You can continue in your present state of self-centeredness and hopelessness, or you can do some serious self-searching and discover the point inside yourself where you made the decision that prevents you from going further. Once you discover that decision, you can replace it with the decision to reach for the Christ consciousness, to reach beyond your limited sense of self, your limited sense of identity, and see yourself as part of a larger whole.

If you will sincerely engage in this process, you can very quickly go through a complete turnaround in your life, and you will attain a very strong sense of compassion and purpose. You can then become one of the Christed beings that I talk about in the following discourse. You can play your part in bringing God’s kingdom to earth and raising humankind to a higher level of consciousness. My friend, is that not of worthy purpose?

Just look at how many people on this planet are spiritually impoverished and need those who can guide them without forcing them to enter a particular outer religion. If that doesn't motivate you, then look at how many physical problems are waiting to be solved. There is no shortage of good causes that can engage you in the process of helping others, and I can assure you that working for a greater cause and helping others is the fastest – and often the only – cure for depression.

Please make the effort to find that point in your lifestream where you have a very strong love for God's purpose. Then allow that love to consume all sense of meaninglessness. Allow that love to awaken you to who you truly are and why you chose to come to earth at this crucial hour. Allow that love to burn away all the dross of self-centeredness and depression that prevents you from being who you are.

I have need of you and people like you. People who feel they have done everything there is to do on this planet and are willing to set aside the pleasures of this world to work for a greater cause.

I have need of you. God has need of you. The planet has need of you. Other people have need of you. And you have a need to overcome your self-centeredness and help yourself move on by helping others. My friend, do you need any more motivation than that? Now let us be about our Father’s business!





Copyright © 2004 by Kim Michaels

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