Question: In the dictation of Mother Mary (Friday) she said something like you have to love yourself, and this is your inner self, right?
Yes, she said that early on, but then she also later said that you do have to love the outer self after a certain point.
Question: That part I understand, but when I look to my inner self, how I experience my inner self is love, so how can I love myself when myself is love?
This answer was given by Kim Michaels at a conference in Holland.
Kim: Yes, but I think the way it’s meant is that so few people in the world love themselves. What she was saying was that first she was making the distinction that we’ve been brought up, especially as spiritual people, to think that we have the outer self, the human self, and it’s difficult for us to conceive of loving that at a certain stage of the path. Then we need to come to that stage where we can love ourselves.
I understand what you are saying. Of course, your I AM Presence is love, but it’s not really your I AM Presence you need to love. It’s more, I guess, the level of the Conscious You where you need to love yourself. So she was saying: “I love you as the totality of the being you are right now.” My sense is that’s what she wants us to realize, that we can love ourselves, even though we’re not perfect and still have a human self. She was saying a key part of that is as long as you’re in embodiment, she doesn’t want you to think that you have to be perfect or you have to have ascended before you can love yourself. She’d like us to love ourselves as we are right now, even though we still may have a human self or the outer personality.
I know for myself, for many years on the spiritual path I just had this idea of how I was supposed to be if I was a good spiritual person, a good ascended master student. I felt like I couldn’t love myself if I didn’t live up to that. So if I lost my temper or got a little short or got irritated, then I would come down on myself because of that. It was almost like there was for years this sense that I had to be perfect before I could love myself. It took me a long time to process that and get through it and see that. But it was really not until I heard her dictation, or received her dictation, that it sort of clicked in me what I’d been going through in that process.
Because you really have to dare to love yourself. She was giving a teaching, but I sense personally that in loving yourself there’s a process to go through. You have to clear out these energies that pull you into not loving yourself. You have to see the illusions for what they are. I have started realizing more and more there comes a point where you have to make a decision to love yourself. It’s like a conscious will.
I can see now, when I look back at my own path, that I had a far too passive approach to life in general. I was talking to somebody yesterday, and we realized we were both people pleasers. We like to please others so you get into this reactionary mode of: “What do other people need? What do they want? And then I’ll do that for them.” But you also get that on the path. It’s like now for many years I would think: “What do the masters want me to do? And then I’ll do that.” I was saying to somebody else that I was contemplating the will of God and what God wants me to do, and the answer I received was: “What if God wants you to make your own decisions?” It was a shock to me because in a sense I was scared of making my own decisions.
I have also contemplated what is the most scary concept on earth. Think about this: What is the most scary concept on earth? It’s actually freedom because as long as there is something you have to react to, something that’s forcing you, there are certain decisions you don’t have to make. But if you’re standing there and you’re completely free, there’s nothing that’s pulling you, and it’s all you who has to decide: “Who am I? Who do I want to be? How do I want to express myself?”
I used to have this thought on the path that if I did all the decrees and studied the teachings, then one day something magical would happen, and I would just be enlightened or free or whatever. Now I’m becoming much more conscious of the fact that there are these stages on the path. You are supposed to do these outer things – they help you move forward – but there comes a point where you are not going to move forward until you are willing to make the decision.
And that’s what I was saying with loving yourself. You can listen to Mother Mary’s dictation, and you can give the invocations, but there comes a point where you have to decide: “I am loving myself.” I actually felt that – I think it was the night before last, or maybe it was the night of the dictation – when I went to bed. I was just lying there, and all of a sudden I felt there was something that changed in me, and I made that decision: “Yes, I am loving myself. I am worthy to love myself.” I think we all need to come to that. But not just with loving ourselves, with many other things on the path.
Copyright © 2015 Kim Michaels